anxious

Last August the creepy guy in the basement of my apartment building sold me his centurion touring bike for $20. Later in September I raced my first cx on a jalopy of a single speed. And then continued to race every race I could get to that fall. This post is more a venting, and a letting off of steam then something constructive. Technically its still spring, and will continue to be so for a little over a month. This leaves about four months until the first cyclocross race of my second season. I now roll up to the starting line of local road races secretly wishing it was a cx event instead. I have to talk myself out of my fall training and riding routines each time I go out for a ride. Insisting to myself that the races that I race right now are road races, and 5 miles of running and then a bunch of sprint intervals may not be as beneficial as some base miles and whatever else the local roadies who let me tag along do. I incesently flip through, read and reread the few cx magazines that I own.The existence of this website proves that obviously I am not the only person who thinks about cyclocross beyond the autumn season, but nonetheless I had little presumption that it would monopolize all cycling related thoughts in my mind. My previous B series (cat3) season wasn't even that good. Only one top ten finish, and at the end I puked more than I did with my first encounter with vodka. Perhaps though, that was the kicker, each race I steadily improved my finish, and then finally at least something to talk about. And now, all I can think is, if I start now, with the right schedule I could routinely place well.Well I never really stopped from last season. It's still spring. Before it was winter, and the anxiety was even worse. It's like waiting for Christmas, only more sadistic and ludicrous. I know that not even including the pros, or the cat 1-2s there are many many many people who train year round specifically for the cyclocross season, but still I can not help but feel and (almost) consuming anxiety and excitement for this fall. Even if it's another season of bum races, I'm giddy as all hell. I hope others share this too.